Another two weeks of War Machine’s prison musings, and the bad news is that he’s now been moved to a new facility, shackled, forced to wear a green uniform reserved for dangerous prisoners, and put into isolation.
The good news is that, true to his ‘going against the grain’ attitude, War Machine actually seems to like it better in solitary confinement!
A Sgt. came to interview me in regard to the Internal Affairs report that I helped the old Polish man file; the one the cops assaulted. What do you know, 2 days later they move me to a new facility far away to “punish me” no doubt. Also, they put me in a green uniform all of a sudden. For those of you in the dark, green is reserved for inmates facing the death penalty, already sentenced to life, someone who has an escape attempt, or one who has attacked staff. I get out in 5 months and I’m suddenly a threat? When in greens, you are shackled up like Hannibal every time you leave your cell… you should see it… lol. Also, I had an abcess in my armpit and the doc feared it may be MRSA, so now I’m in the hole to be isolated. I’m not gonna get into the neglect of my medical treatment right now. But oh how I love the hole! I’ve been wanting to be here for a while but was unwilling to do something stupid to get sent here. No celly! Everyone else loves “main line” and cellies cuz they can see their “homies,” but I’ve only met like 3 guys I enjoyed speaking with this whole time so I love the alone time. 23 hours lock down but jail is jail so who cares? Plus the bunk arrangement in my cell allows me to do pull-ups! I’m gonna figure out how I can stay here, even after my wound heals. Maybe I’ll tell them I’m a danger to other inmates and don’t trust myself to not hurt someone? I think that’ll work.
So I began reading a cool book series called “The Kent Family Chronicles.” I love it. It’s about an immigrant who came to America just before the Revolutionary War. (True story BTW) Anyhow, man! This country was supposed to be so bad ass! Really, a place I would have been proud of. No doubt, if our founding fathers came back from the grave they’d be disgusted and would demand the people to overthrow our government. I really believe they had the right idea, they just didn’t take into account the greed of our leaders to come nor the way they’d forget to appreciate what this country stands for and why the U.S. defected from England in the 1st place. The ultimate mistake is really the very idea of government! We are meant to be in tribes! Gov. will always ultimately fail because it, as well as technology, goes against nature. That being said, I’ll no longer say “I hate the U.S.” anymore, only that “I hate government.”
Also, while being in “the hole” I have managed to really identify just what my main problem is: I hate being told what to do so much that I choose to spite myself rather than do it! Here’s a perfect example: Here in “the hole” the Mexicans and the Whites “sound off” at morning and night. Example: the “shot caller” will yell “Attention on the tier! Good morning London,” or W/E the White guy’s name is, he does it to everyone. Then London, or whoever it is, will yell, “Good morning to you! Good morning to the rest of the wood pile, thank you!” And EVERY guy does it and I think it’s gay as fuck! They didn’t know I was here yet, so never called on me, but I had decided I’m gonna tell them that I don’t wanna do that gay shit! And I know if I do that it’s gonna cause all kinds of drama and everyone will hate me and threaten to kill me and send “kites” to every jail/prison with orders to stab me if I’m sent there. See, why can’t I just do the gay lil’ thing and avoid so much trouble? It will take me 10 seconds. Why am I so stubborn that I’d rather deal with millions of enemies than do one lil’ thing that I’d rather not? LOL! WTF!? Every time I get myself in a mess it has something to do with me spiting myself, ruining my own situation. I’m done with that, I’m gonna say the gay lil’ line and stop being so stubborn in other situations too. I’m over the “hard way.” I just want to train, fight, be with my friends, and love my wife. No more kicking my own ass.
Okay, on a fucked up closing note… I had a dream, back when I was free, that @RileySteel got killed, and I think I even Tweeted @JesseJane about it. Anyway, I had it again! I don’t know why I’d dream that but I hope she’s all good. If you read this, maybe you should buy a gun or somethin!? LOL. Okay, I’m out! Keep the e-mails coming and take note of my new physical address if you’re one who writes!
Still enjoying hole life to the fullest… lol. The guards laugh that I’d rather be here, locked down all the time (only come out 1 hr. every other day) but they don’t understand my reasoning. Yeah, I hated having cellies but really, I’m scared of something happening and me having to defend myself and hurting someone. THe guards say if it went down like that it’d be “self defense” and I’d be okay but I have ZERO faith in the justice system. Especially considering that I’m here for “defending myself.” On the “main-line” I was in constant fear of something happening and me catching another case. In the hole, there is no chance of that at all, so I’m happy to spend these last 5 months here. They tried to move me back to the mainline the other day and I kindly refused. Not much they can do seeing as the maximum punishment here is the hole. I don’t think they’ve ever really encountered someone refusing additional freedom… lol.
Anyway, the “shot caller” here is an active member of the Aryan Brotherhood, which if you don’t know, is the highest level a White inmate can obtain. These dudes literally worship him, it’s amusing. Always funny too is how guys like him are the most quiet & humbles dudes here, while all the wannabe knuckleheads never shut the fuck up. He recently spent 12 years in the SHU of Pelican Bay & Corcoran, crazy right? He was only free 3 months and now goin back for a minimum of 3 years. He’s taken a liking to me, I’m sure a lot to do with my profession, but also because I don’t annoy him with constant ass kissing and he can come to my door and just talk about whatever. In our talks I see the same common theme that I see in all the “OG’s” I’ve met in the system, it’s all B.S. and they wasted their lives aspiring to be top dog in the prison world. All these young guys won’t hear it though, to them becoming a member of The Mexican Mafia or The Aryan Brotherhood is like me winning the UFC title or something.
Oh, also as I mentioned/complained about, “sounding off” at breakfast & nighttime, I have come to understand it. First thing when one of the “Woods” realized I was new in the module, they apologized for not including me right away. Really, I guess it’s just a way for you to know you’re not alone and a group of men are here with you sharing in the passing months of solitary. Also, the guys in the hole are less lame than the main-line big mouths, the guys here are here for a reason, they’re doers, not just bags of hot air. Which doesn’t matter in real life cuz this way of life is no way of life at all, but at least I don’t have to hear so much fake bad ass talk.
And oh shit, check this out, my boy said he sent me 4 books like 4 months ago, but I only received 2. Today I went to this skinhead from London’s cell and asked to borrow a book. He hands me “Lone Survivor” and I think, “Cool that’s one of the books I was supposed to have received, now I can read it.” I get in my cell and fucking A! My name and booking # are in marker on the book! WTF!? I was at the other jail when I was supposed to receive it and when you get a book sent in, the guards hand deliver it to you & give you a receipt. Only 2 possibilities. 1) The Deps stole it and read it instead of giving it to me, then put it in one of the lil’ library carts, or 2) A “trustee” stole it out of the mail downtown and then brought it to this facility. Either way, what are the odds it’d wind up in my hands!? Fuckin’ trip! I read the book in 2 days and it was pretty darn good, crazy story. Was a lot better than “Robert’s Ridge,” that book sucked. Whenever I read these type of Navy SEAL books, I like to ask my SEAL buddies about them. They always know way more of the story and any SEAL gossip behind it. I have my suspicions about the Survivor but I wanna see what my boys say.
Anyway, I’m bummed that Vitor lost, but happy Forrest Griffin won, I thought Franklin might beat him. I trained with Forrest & Vitor in Vegas for a year and both were realy cool guys. I finally started working out! Every day since coming to the hole. I’m horribly outta shape but doing pull-ups, pushups, jump squats, lunges, pretend jump rope and shadow boxing. I’m confident I’ll keep the regiment up here, before I was too irritated at having a celly and to be honest, self-conscious. to let anyone see a “professional athlete” struggle through basic fucking exercises. LMAO! Fuck man, I’ve never been so outta shape, I didn’t think it was possible. Every day I’m progressing though. I’ll be back.